Fred will be comin over for awhile. how nice of him hee
he's already on the way over now.... we're gonna go to parkway for lunch at pasta mania later...

before i forget,
[H][A][P][P][Y]::~::[N][E][W]::~::[Y][E][A][R]!!!!!!!

we're gonna go to the countdown at sentosa with terry they all later tonight...
then i'll be staying over at fred's hse..
school starts on thursday.. how boring...
hope today will be fine and wishing u guys all the best when sch starts.
i was talking to shaikha yesterday... abt grouping for project..
seems like veron did some 'underground' arrangement already..
she's joining gloria's group.
damn.
i somehow think that me, shaikha and jeremy should stick together.
cos we are good with each other and also each of us are good at something.
so all we need is another leader. someone who can see the big picture well.
and a effective researcher.
sheena was 'chatting' with shaikha while asking her abt the group thingy.
asking if we shld start planning who to grp with.
seems like veron n her fall out sometime during the holidays...
but someone don't juz ask a qns out of nowhere..
so what we tot sheena was heading at, was to grp with us.
die oso dun wan. :P

i seem to be chatting alot of mari recently....
we hit off well...
although everyone else in haiz never did liked her haha
cos she banned everyone frm haiz frm entering #osaka..
but she's alwayz msging me...starting a convo with me
and usually it'll last for hours and hours...
i at first mistook her for another friend of mine.. (when she re-chat with me)
ppl alwaiz changing nick...make me confuse only...
end up found out it's mari haha..
exchanged some photo with her..
think i better go tell hiroko i made a mistake and that ger is really mari haha...

one thing to add before i end. mari is very pretty. hahahaha...

My Results
[Ok. You are sympathetic, loyal, considerate, and conscientious. You will go to any amount of trouble, when it makes sense to you, to help those in need. You are responsible and enjoy being needed. You are down-to-earth and realistic and like others who are quiet and unassuming. You absorb and enjoy using a large number of facts.]

[You like situations where the rules are well defined and where traditions are to be upheld. You focus on providing practical help and services for others and for the organizations you serve. You have a strong work ethic.]

[You can be painstakingly accurate and systematic in handling tasks...you're conservative with traditional values...quiet and modest...tactful and supportive of friends and family...]

[You are often self-effacing in getting the job done, and are willing to make necessary sacrifices, especially for your family. You are at your best quietly providing assistance and making sure things are in order.]

[You have a few close friends, don't like disharmony, and try to keep cooperation at all costs...you'll stay close friends with that tight circle for a LONG time...worry a lot... ]

[You need to have things organized in a way you think works.. you cannot work when things are out of order...when things are in disarray, you have to reorganize 'em immediately....you get involved with leisure ONLY after all the work is done...]

[You have a tendency to put off relaxing because there's too much work to be done...you enjoy time with your family...you fall in love hard when you fall. You place a high value on marriage and family...you seek out a partner and feel unfulfilled without one. you most likely are a good student because you diligently follow through in your work to please your teachers.....you learn best by DOING...]

[You tend not to be the center of attention...often appear serious...others like trying to get a laugh or a smile out of you...you get angry or bitter when scorned...but you keep it inside...]

[Possible blindspots: because you are SOOOO in the present, you have a hard time seeing possibilities or consequences of your actions...can become mired in the daily grind...don't forget to express your bottled-up feelings...you can be taken advantage of....could be pessimistic about the future because it's unknown and you rely on past experiences.....you want to plan too much.]

ISFJ: "I Serve Family Joyfully"
According to Wilfred, it's "scarily accurate" for me hahaha... i had the same result as honggy, shaikha and mari...

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Today was a blast!!
we were in the pool for 4 HOURS!!!
hahahaha siao liao...

me n fred met up first at Queenstown Mrt Stn at abt 2:30PM. *not late this time*
fred's dad gav him some cash to top up his ezlink and also bought a mop for him to vacuum n mop the new hse... so basically i'm there to help. at first only thought 2 of us.. end up we saw a woman's shoe there and realised we're not alone in the house. his mum was there. in a swimming suit. *ARGH* the sight was pretty traumatising. i think she exercised too much. she is already so skinny but the muscles duno wad happen..the skins are already become wrinkly.. like as if her fats burnt out or something..

anyway, we went on to do the housework.. i was cleaning the toilet.. *NOT TOILET BOWL LAR*.. i was wiping the glass panels... then wilfred was vacuuming and mopping the flr... then i'm not very sure what his mum was doing, i went on to clean the living room's window... had to use a extender or somesort...very tough to clean the window cos there are lotsa places that are hard or rather, impossible to reach. u cant climb either or u'll fall out. so pretty headache. basically fred's mum is abit reckless and sometimes, death doesnt scare her. she climbs up and attempt to clean the window which was a very very dangerous feat cos she's rather unstable due to the alcohol, and wilfred was begging her to get off but she sorta taunt him abt 'wads the deal abt danger' thingy... and slouched onto the metal grill. there was nothing other than the grill to support her. one slip, and it's adios amigo~

i dropped the extender thingy hahahaha!! out the window!! 8 levels down and wilfred had to go pick it up. but at least i'm almost done with the cleaning. then kero called and say he arrived. (by the way, Terry didn't come. his dad didn't allow wahaha.. and kero came cos i asked him onli this afternoon) so i called fred to pick him up at the mrt stn. while they are doing so, fred's mum is sleeping in the room and i was attempting to finish cleaning up the center window plane, a huge glass plane in the middle almost impossible to reach. i tied the cloth to the stick and clean it but halfway thro it snapped (two sticks connecting to be one) so the top part of the stick drop down!!! 8 levels down!!! ahahahaha so muz ask ike 'on the way' pick that up too.. when fred picked kero up to the hse, sano called us and he had to go pick sano again haha and kero was left in the hse with me changing in the bathroom. i was trying to wear the swimsuit. *struggling* kero was as usual doing weird things. he has this wonderful skill of self-entertaining and was skipping and walking in circles in the living room. soon sano and fred came back and i gav them some tidbits to eat. pineapple tarts i brought frm home. sano hid inside the storeroom duno for wad. hahaha siao one.

we went down to the pool to swim at about... 4 something near 5PM.. the water was warmer but still cold. we went to swim, kero wore pants n jump in!!! cos he not swimming trunks hahaha but nvm lah.. we swim here swim there and wilfred was still teaching me how to do breast stroke properly and i did it!!! YAY!! but tiring hahaha so everytime after swimming around abit i'll ask ike to carry me around.. in the water like koala bear hehehehe and i wasn't the only one!! fred also became one hahaha

well, a couple of rather interesting things happened today:
.::we sat in the warmer area in the pool made into something that looked like a jacuzzi and sano and kero
.::seem to love it there hahaha..
.::then we wore goggles and went dwn to see bubbles!!!
.::kero and sano went bonkies!! they were blowin bubbles in the pool and making alot of funny noises.. like
.::siao ppl hahaha
.::when they got out of the warm area n jumped back into the pool, sano was shivering and kero let out a
.::squeal hahaha cos damn cold
.::kero n sano attempt to jog in the water. looks dumb wahaha...
.::then sano sat at one of the fountain squirty thingy. the way he sat, it looks as if he's peeing hahahaha
.::fred's mum suddenly shout at sano and say 'you never call me ah!' haha sano stunned sia.. but still greet
.::lah..
.::i fed the guys prawn rolls while sitting by the edge of the pool. sano, ike n kero. then they act like dolphins
.::hahaha sano made seal sound and kero made dolphin. hahahha

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Today went swimming!!!!!
I finally bought my new swimsuit but it cost me alot. you wouldn't believe it. you might even scold me crazy cos it's... *drum roll* $50.70!!!!!!!! but no choice. really wan to swim and also, every where i go, from Queensway shopping complex to anchor point, the price is averaged at about $50 - $60... mad sia...wonder why they hiked the price of swimsuits up so much.. but anyway, the design i chose was rather simple and sport.. but i think i bought the wrong size...VERY TIGHT! okok.. muz work out more and lose weight hahah then i should be more at ease when wearing it...

man did i go through almost comparable to hell *okok...i'm exaggerating* juz to get a swimsuit..
cos previously i wanted to buy one.. and wilfred quarrelled with his mum...so he dun wan to ask her to lend me her swimsuit.. so i took $30 from dad since everyone told me it wouldn't exceed 30..but it did.. we met up at Queenstown mrt ctrl stn at 2PM in the end although we previously did so too but changed to jurong cos his dad wanted to get furniture but something turned sour and stuff and end up he didnt go. i could hear his mum screaming and shouting like a mad woman on the background of the phone. i hate her voice so much. especially when she screams and shout at almost anything.. unimportant things.. and it can literally drive me insane. sometime i even think i hate her... i simply don't know how not to... i see the way she treat fred and i get damn pissed off...

anyway, soon after we met, we went to get my swimsuit but the price is simply to much. so we walked around but to no avail and i was feeling pretty dwn cos i really wanted to swim. it was exceptionally hot today. not sure why but the sun was shining so brightly and we sweat alot. walking back and forth looking for swimsuit worsened it. when i lost hope and even after trying out the neighbouring shops, we couldn't find a decent and cheap swimsuit. being one of the oldest town, Queenstown is very very decentralized and the places juz dun fit and getting from one place to the other is such a hassle. fred knew i was very sad and kept on sayanging me.. then i suggested we go to Anchor Point. there, is where we found my swimsuit. it's still as costly but i couldn't care less anymore. wilfred forked out $10 for me and after we bought the swimsuit, we went to eat at Junction 8... and when we're done, we went back to his condo and got prepared to swim. the water is slightly warmer than the day we went with sano but still as cold. had lotsa fun in the water and tried swimming around but couldn't swim around much cos i lack of exercise and got tired pretty soon. but nevertheless, i enjoyed today because i have wilfred with me. we swam for quite sometime and even tried out the 'jacuzzi' like area.. the water there is warm!!! so nice!!!! *wHeE* we went back up and bathe and hee..secretly tried out wilfred's folks' bathtub!! *shh...dun tell them!* haha and when we were done, we sat at the ledge and enjoyed the view. very peaceful and we could smell and see ppl barbequeing dwnstairs. hope his folks throw a bbq when they hav their hsewarming! i love BBQ!!!

but i cant quite sit still and enjoy serenity in the neighbourhood sometimes..
too quiet..
i am not the kinda ppl who can juz reside at a country side to enjoy the rest of my life..
i nid activity and bustling motion of ppl....
guess both fred n i are too much of a city person...

terry was supposed to come along but end up didn't..
tomorrow we swimming again!! hehehe..this time terry and sano is coming along!!!
but we gotta mop and vacuum the hse first..
fred's dad asked him to..
hope everything goes well

Words on a Turn-Table

I threw words onto my turn-table.
Increased it�s volume
And let it blast my tympanum
To pieces.

Words scrabbling on the turn-table
Spinning
A psychedelic tune
I could not understand

I snatched at
What my small palms could hold
While a few slipped away
And fell into cracks between parquet tiles.

Hastily words were huddled
Into a pillow case
And a pillow shoved in.
Words suffocated.

I lay on bed
Head on a turn-table.

Heng Siok Tian

This poem graphically illustrates what can happen when words take on a life of their own a slip out of one�s control.

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Saturday Stuff
darn..came home early..
could've gotten the slot right for the blog but end up doin all sorts of things..
1) wash face
2) watch tv
3) talk to dad
4) eat mee dad tar pow-ed

*sigh*
end up forgot all about the time and end up late for my blog hehe

today went wilfred house
played the sims
hehehe build a table enough for 4 in the courtyard!!!!
seems like they like it there!
then i extended the courtyard so that they can have gathering there....
*WhEe*

Lot 1 there the bubble tea very nice!!
i bought peach..!
taste very real..
tomorrow me and wilfred shall go Queenstown his new condo
there and swim again!!!!! YAAAAY!!
bad news is, TERRY might be comin along!!!
RARGH!

juz now me n fred fred lie on bed n chit chat...
then he keep staring at me..
sho paiseh hahaha
all my pimple he can see.. XP
he say he like to see me..
then keep giggling at me and say i cute.. @_@?
but then ,he also mentioned that he love me alot alot and then he got very serious..
and wad i thought was that, aftering being together for over one year plus,
and still being able to fall in love with each other all over again is a very wonderful feeling...
haha..

maria: argh damn i nid to buy swimsuit!!!"

forgot to post this up for the previous entry cos the uploading server of mine is abit jammed haha
this is sorta a rough draft of what me and wilfred planned to do for his room....



erm.. basically i kinda think i drew the furnitures a little bit too small haha

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YO YO YO!!!
How have everyone been for the past two days since i'm gone!?
Missed me? hehz*
basically, juz to ease your minds on where i went, *although i did remember mentioning it*..
but it won't harm to juz say it again haha...

25th November 2002, Wednesday, Christmas Day
Orchard is juz like any other weekends that is occasionally packed with people but not to the extend where we cant walk. in simple words, it's not like christmas. couldn't sense it anywhere. it was pouring before i reached... orchard became a place that smells of rain and cool moist but yet another dull and boring weekend. no christmas spirit noted. i met up with wilfred and brought along some things which he asked me off to decorate to his new house. he'll be moving into the new Queenstown condo.
we hanged around and decided to head up to grafitti cafe for a pit stop. sat dwn and chit chatted, we ordered a peach pearl tea while i was rearranging my baby photos... what was in the photo album were pictures of me when i was younger...at different phases... when i was a child.... when i was older.. in primary school... and while i was playing soccer in bras basah complex... to me, photographs are not juz taken for fun. they have a reason to be there and a story to tell. it's like a jigsaw puzzle that helps to piece my past together... a very important part of my memories.

ok, back to talk abt orchard. we met sano up at grafitti cafe.. sorta like he approached us. i was pretty surprised actually although i did chat with him online before going out.. i asked him to call us when he reach town since he told me he is coming. but wad i didn't know was that he's gonna watch movie alone haha.. said he didn't feel like asking anyone else along... i used to do that too... haha but now no more... me n fred walked around while sano was watching movie.. we meeting back with him when he's done with the movie. lotsa fashionable couples recently.. and also tall ones...as in both guy and ger v tall kinds... i wonder why haha.. i'm having a little bit of memory loss.. oh yah... me and wilfred went over to the man u shop... walked all the way there from heeren... it was a long walk plus, it was starting to pour. we end up being caught getting shelter at the hotel near forum... wilfred decides to run across and gotten me alittle bit wet and very grouchy.. but we got there and wilfred was happily looking around like a kid in a toy shop. there was this sale there and everything was going cheap... or rather cheaper than usual.. then soon after sano called up *time either flies real quick, or the movie was damn short* and we met up at the burger king at Liat Towers.. the one next to borders... then we sorta had our dinner there while i had half a chicken burger *then giv ike* and a rendang burger. sano ate turkey bacon while ike had a whopper meal... haha he ate so much..

then since it was still pretty early and there's no point staying in a lifeless orchard road, wilfred suggested that we go on down to his new hse to check it out... so we did.
the place is spectacular frm the outside. we went in thro the backdoor cos that's where the mrt is nearest to.... omost something like 'beside' it hahaa.... anyway, we went in, and the place wilfred's unit is, is pretty slick and classy and nice. only thing was that everything is so small.. the living room is rectangular and rather narrow... the rooms are darn small especially wilfred's.. i didn't like it at first cos it's too small and the view sux... but i'm alrite with it now.. we hang around looking and then fred brought us up to the penthouse... at the moment we can all go and check it out but when ppl start moving in we cant... cos it'll be owned by those who bought the hse that is on the highest level. most expensive but u get the view that is simply amazing. u get to see part of the city like toys frm high grounds. very nice and very windy. there's even a jacuzzi!!! damn cool! minus pts are, if rain, jia lat. if lighting, osho jia lat. haha.. we went back dwn and go home after that but arranged to go swimming tomorrow!!!! whee! it's been years since i last swam man! yeeeeeaaaars....

then soon we went back home by taking a train back.. pretty convenient.. and since wilfred's dad has gone to work, i'm more or less relieved. the only person at home was his mum who kept herself in the room when i juz entered the house. while we unpacked and all, wilfred's room is now much more emptier... he took dwn the posters to transfer them to his new room tomorrow... while he watched his wrestling, i played The Sims.

then, we bathed and had supper.. shared a bowl of maggi fred cooked.. chatted through the night about loads of things..till about 3AM or so... i love talking to him like this. no stress and very fun.

26th December 2002, Thursday
we sorta slept and wilfred say he had a disturbed sleep.. he dreams alot and it's caused him to have little rest.. but we woke up at about 12:00PM. cool part was we were chatting and lazying around on the bed while he joked about some stuff. hugging him and juz sleeping there was a very cosy and nice feeling.
hm..we got ourselves out of bed and basically, our finances are damn damn damn the tight cos i'm left with $20. and i have to pay for my registration fee for signing up for my Advance 2 japanese language course. i didn't know how much i needed to bring... *urgh*..we rushed through doin omost every single thing... the packing up and all.. and rushed down at about 1PM to have our lunch. chicken rice for both of use with two cans of coke. rushed through eating that we then rushed to draw some money out for paying off my fees. i drew out $110 and had $80 on my own. tot $190 would do the trick but was proven so wrong later. we rushed and i topped up my ezlink card with $10 and now i'm left with $10. rushed off taking the mrt to bugis, we went on to my JCS upstairs to get the number and the application form. the whole registration thingy starts at 2:30PM. wilfred waited downstairs. you might think i'm being kiasu. but it pays to be there early. when i reached, already many ppl reached and was collecting number tags. i'm number 28. i waited for a long while i soon managed to get the slot for the class i wanted: saturday 2:00 - 4:10PM. i proceeded to the counter to pay but the queue was freaking long. took me another half an hour to finish it all and got out of the building only after 3PM. one thing i missed out was, i found out that the total bill was $215. i was $25 short. so i had to resort to borrowing $20 frm my ex-classmate. mum called earlier on saying that my cousin was unable to be contacted and she had to get guma to come over and stand in for him at my house. the construction is still goin on. when we're done wilfred told me sano aint comin over to swim.... i was alittle sad about it cos i wanted there to be more ppl.. anyway, me n wilfred headed to his new hse straightaway. he was holding my bag and his posters while i held his bag *lighter* and some stuff i wanna put at his hse as deco.. then when we reached there, we cleaned up his room. the floor, the window and the wall. windows were terribly hard to clean..so scared to fall dwn hahaha.. we hung up the posters and rearranged things alittle and now the room looks so much more pleasant. cos the whole hse is with aircon..

then i gav sano a call since it's not raining and managed to persuade him to come over to swim! YAY!
he very power leh! swim so fast hehehe i swim half already wan to die liao haha faster call ike and cling onto him like koala bear hee then hug onto him while he bring both of us around... then he teach me make BUBBLES! hee sho fun!! *goes bouncy* then he teach sano osho hee! i so long never swim very tiring haha but very fun and i dun wan to get out of the water hahaha.. ike lookz cute in water hahaha *gawks*

then when we finish swimming we went upstairs and eat the food in the hamper haha cheeseballs and butter cookies!!!! yummy! then... hang ard awhile liao we left haha.. all in all today was great! i took the train and changed to bus home.. wilfred n sano is now watching soccer at home..

misc
school's starting and it sux.. i hate school big time
and now i'm havin prob checking out the timetable too...
tp website sux..
and i forgot to mention,
DAD IS SHO STUPID
he locked the room door frm inside!!!
they had all the keys and money inside. =__=
had to call the locksmith come... haiz haiz..

WISHING U ALL A MERRY CHRISTMAS & A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!
hopefully all of u (whom i hav ur email add)
have received the x'mas card i drawn and sent to you!!

my stupid dad not only pissed me off yesterday, he pissed my mum off BIG TIME today.. haha
kana scolded like crazy..
he's alwayz comin up with mad ideas whenever there's a prob and making things harder to handle..
*sips on chinchin lemon tea*
the construction ppl siao one leh...
i wanted to bathe today.. *sad to say* i havent bathed for abt..1 day plus...
THEN they removed the temporary toilet duno for wad sia...
then end up house toilet not finished with
temp toilet gone..
duno go where pee sia..
end up went downstairs the 'big temp toilet' they set up for us...
lucky thing is, hehe, it's clean! wad u thinkin man haha.
i've juz chatted with an old' irc friend frm chnnl japan last time...
she's studying japanese too but then seems like she's very stressed about it...
been keepin myself busy the whole day...
i'm pretty amazed though... usually i'll be crying bored and be damn sad and stuff
right now i'm stacking up my comic bookshelve... hehe
if i could ever take a picture to show u guys, u'll be shocked haha
i'm almost 'devouring' the whole shelf...

*shows victory sign*
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!
mum managed to persuade dad to let me stay at "friend's" place!!!!
MUAHAHAHAHA...

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i've mailed all the christmas greeting cards already!

I sent out the christmas cards quite early so by now most of you should've gotten it already..
and i juz sent out the e-card version of a christmas greeting..! Check ur mailbox!
hopefully ms rieru gets her package... haha but i think it'll take quite awhile....

my head feels so itchy now..wan to bathe oso cannot.. they removed the temporary toilet..
wonder y sia...
oh well,
wishing u guys a MERRY CHRISTMAS! and a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!....
i'm still pissed with dad..
i'll try to persuade him tonight..

The Old Familiar Faces
Where are they gone, the old familiar faces?

I had a mother, but she died, and left me,
Died prematurely in a days of horrors �
All, all are gone, the old familiar faces.

I have had playmates, I have had companions,
In my days of childhood, in my joyful school-days �
All, all are gone, the old familiar faces.

I have been laughing, I have been carousing,
Drinking late sitting late, with my bosom cronies �
All, all are gone, the old familiar faces.

I loved once, fairest among women.
Closed are her doors on me, I must not see her �
All, all are gone, the old familiar faces.

I have a friend, a kinder friend has no man.
Like an ingrate, I left my friend abruptly;
Left him, to muse on the old familiar faces.

Ghost-like, I paced round the haunts of my childhood.
Earth seem�d a desert I was bound to traverse,
Seeking to find the old familiar faces.

Friend of my bosom, thou more than a brother!
Why wert not thou born in my father�s dwelling?
So might we talk about the old familiar faces.

For some they have died, and some they have left me,
And some are taken from me; all are departed;
All, all are gone, the familiar faces.

Charles Lamb

Charles Lamb devoted his life to looking after his sister Mary who, in a fit of insanity, had killed their mother. This poem was written shortly after that tragedy and expresses his sense of shock and loneliness.

fucked up..
nid to let off some steam here..
stupid father juz HAVE TO MAKE me lie to him.
fucked up.
say go friend hse he suspect..alwaiz ask me go who's hse..boi or ger.. so i write ger lah..then wad? dun allow..WTF!? he rather i say chalet.. wat sia as if chalet i say not often enough... muz make me lie lor nabei...
heck man.. NO MATTER WAD.. i will stay over man.. i'm not gonna stay at home for christmas.

talk about something else. this is making my blood boil..
fucked up..ruin my night...
wanted to say about xinxian la...
met him the other day when we went out with ken...
duno wad to feel man.. it's like... he is the bastard that made me had those emotional scars last time...
he is the bastard that did those mean things, said those mean stuff but then again,
he is once my friend and once part of my good memories...
i don't know whether to be angry or sad when i saw him..
he changed alot.
taller..
dressing changed..
but the looks the same.. still as nice looking..

talking to yifeng right now..
some stuff about wilfred.....
many ppl asked and i'm getting sick of it....
but nevermind..they're juz concerned
i don't wish to mention wad the problem is cos it pains me so..
but i feel like dying when i'm talking on and on about him with her...
it's like slapping my face with hard truth which i know but didn't wan to face..
I KNOW about all those things you ppl have been telling me
i know...
but what can i do!? put yourselves in my shoe..
and tell me what i can do. please.

...someday'll be gone
Must say goodbye
But the love you give will always live
You'll always be there every time I fall
You take my weakness and you make me strong
And I will always love you till forever comes
And when you need me
I'll be there for you always
I'll be there your whole life through
I'll be there through the lonely days
I'll be there this I promise you mamma
I'll be your beacon through the darkest night
I'll be the wings that guide your broken flight
I'll be your shelter through the raging storm
And I will love you till forever comes
Goodbye's the saddest word I'll ever hear
Goodbye's the last time I will hold you near
Someday you'll say that word and I will cry
It'll break my heart to hear you say goodbye
Till we meet again until then goodbye....

Celine Dion - Goodbye (the saddest word)

part of the lyrics..
dedicated to her mother.. very touching..

this is my way to live

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I WANNA SLEEP!!!!! ARGH... ...

*smack* okok.. tmr is already christmas eve.. better get into the christmas spirit!!! *osh*
hee actually we had some plans for christmas and stuff.. although nothing much...
somehow i don't pretty like the idea that we're stepping into the later part of the month already..
cos that only means school term is starting soon.. sigh..

i'm gonna pay the bill first later...
and tomorrow basically i won't be going out although it's x'mas eve..
then wednesday i'll be celebrating christmas with wilfred.. staying over...dun call me at my hse k
then thursday i have to rush to JCS to sign up for the Advance II class.. *sigh*..


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Never Seek to Tell Thy Love

Never seek to tell thy love,
Love that never told can be;
For gentle wind does move
Silently, invisibly.

I told my love, I told my love,
I told her all my heart;
Trembling, cold, in ghastly fears,
Ah! She doth depart.

Soon as she was gone from me.,
A traveller came by,
Silently, invisibly:
He took her with a sigh.

William Blake

right now i am trying to 'divert' my anger by blasting some music in my ears with a headphone...
stupid mum made me so fuckin pissed off.
like i said almost all the time, i hate being accused and scolded for nothing..

i juz called wilfred up and she came saying that she wanna show me something abt the toilet...
so i hung up with wilfred and went to the kitchen.. cos basically we're still using the temporary toilet they've set up for us.. so we have very limited space within that toilet.. and she wanted to show me how to flush (i already knew) and i've noticed that the pail is already full and the shower head is in it. stupid mum wanted to demonstrate and turned on the tap. so wad's next? rather predictable. the water from the shower head created a force that shot it out of the pail and faced up on the ground. so then it created a fountain of water on to my mum and she got drenched. basically, not my fault at all. i was merely standing there. then she started scolding me. say i make her wait so long juz to come to the kitchen.. yadda yadda yadda .. does it even make sense? i hung up and went over in less than 2 minutes and she got stupid enough to turn on the tap when the bloody pail was full and it's my fault? kaoz..

well, dad couldn't be too stuffed to even talk haha he juz continued watching tv haha anyway i am more or less cooled down now..


mum sorta found the literature text book which i bought during my secondary school years..
basically we didn't even use it.. stupid teacher made us waste the money on it..
but nevertheless, i was looking throught it and spent quite a number of hours trying to copy those i like down.. *kill time*
write until siao sia... sho many hours neh..

i wonder what i'll be eating for dinner later.. *hungry*
dad bought some nice pineapple tarts and it cost $8++ sia... =___= sho expensive neh.. i think tuesday i'll ask fred to come parkway and we go eat pasta mania.. *hee* fred scold me say i very piggie sometimes..

In This City

In this city, perhaps a street.
In this street, perhaps a house.
In this house, perhaps a room.
And in this room a woman sitting.
Sitting in the darkness, sitting and crying.
For someone who has just gone through the door
And who has just switched off the light
Forgetting she was there.

Alan Brownjohn

This is a poem about what people remember (memorabilia means memorable or noteworthy things) and what they forget, and how what is unimportant to one person may seem significant to another, and vice versa.

I am the Siren A man is often secretly oppressed by the role he has to play - by always having to be responsible, in control, and rational. The Siren is the ultimate male fantasy figure because she offers a total release form the limitations of his life. In her presence, which is always heightened and sexually charged, the male feels transported to a realm of pure pleasure. In a world where women are often too timid to project such an image, learn to take control of the male libido by embodying his fantasy. Symbol: Water. The song of the Siren is liquid and enticing, and the Siren herself is fluid and ungraspable. Like the sea, the Siren lures you with the promise of infinite adventure and pleasure. Forgetting past and future, men follow her far out to sea, where they drown.

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...nOw...
well, other than love i suppose, my eyes are currently swollen. red and swollen. and painful. i'm left with the sheer ability to look straight ahead and nothing else. any other direction will cause strain and pain somehow.. sux.. wonder how i got it swollen? cos of my stupid pants.. and a stupid me. bathing halfway and something went into the eye. needed something to dab on and grabbed a seemingly cloth nearest to me which ended up to be my pants. worse off, it's the bottom of my pants. the part where i'll trottle across my kitchen than is half covered with dust and 1/3 with cement and another 1/4 with water.. lotsa bacteria and i dabbed my eyes with it. *stupid*
well.. at least the toilet is done... the tiles seems to be fixed already and dad is sleeping in my room while me n mum shifted to his... *temporarily*

right now i'm waiting for wilfred's football match to reach half time..

...jUz...
juz read ano's blog.. she mentioned abt fast forwarding time... to me.. sleeping is not for me unless it is necessary.. often others ask me why do i sleep so late.. and when i explain.. they don't seem to understand my point.. neither do they agree.. sleep is only for our body to catch up and mend the tiredness.. all else, we shouldn't be sleeping.. 1/3 of our lives have been slept away and the more we sleep the faster we get onto the train of time and 'fast forward' up .. i do not welcome the new day so soon.. i prefer my time slow.. slow as it can be.. for me to do things and for me to catch up with things... where time is not rushed, life is not rushed and people don't age so fast.. i sleep and i taste the fear of death like a serpent flicking it's tongue warily about to taste the danger... do not ask me why but the fact that i do fear death and am paranoid of about almost everything. i imagine life of an aged. the years passing by.. the time... the people aging.. dying... leaving.. the loneliness... the withered skin... i hate the mere thought of it. i hate it when i see my parents age day by day..

...wAs...
was chatting with ivan.. for less than half an hour.... perhaps juz a couple of minutes... but he joked *which i was unaware of* in an accusing and childish manner *as he described* because i did not turn up at city harvest for the x'mas special. i tried explaining myself but only to end up findin out the fact that he was only joking. nvm. doesn't matter to me. i do not feel comfortable with crowds. i'll get defensive and moody. Leave me Alone.

...EaLieR oN...
was with wilfred earlier on.
met sano and him first at lot 1 and walked around then i went to eat laksa at the food court. we bought lord of the rings - the two towers tix for the 7:30PM show... *good seats..* as sano returned and said that he'll be watching lord of the rings today too.. but at bugis with his brother at 9PM.. then me and wiflred went back to the house to chill out.. we had our dinner there too and when time is up, we left the hse and went for the movie. was late alittle but got juz in time for the movie. the movie was fantastic. words alone cannot describe it well enough but the excellence of the movie making left me in awe. at least the CG was damn believable. and i believe it's better than the previous movie by alot. more action packed. many seems to think likewise... with the added tinge of humour by grimli and legolas.. those of you who havent caught the movie pls go watch it. dun miss out on something great. suddenly this movie make me want to re-read some of david edding's books... mebbe i will.. when the term starts...

According to the Red Book of Westmarch,
In Middle-earth, Maria Wee was a
Incognito Peredhil

i wonder wad dat means...

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having lotsa weird chinese construction worker speaking cantonese in my house now... singing and smoking... how irritating... our room the window's are up already.. juz alittle bit of problem with the air con.. cant close it tight.. *sigh*.. juz now the two little neighbours of mine came into my house.. they were shouting uncle, uncle and they juz trotted in hahaa cute.. the boiboi already 2 years old and i was carrying him.. two little imps so inquisitive...went into my hse and attempted to look for my dad and walked all over the place... the lil boi whom i was carrying also very cute.. make alot of funny noise and couldn't stop fidgeting...

i'm gonna go to the post office awhile later... to get stamps for ms rieru's letter and also to send out the christmas cards.. havent had the chance to send bryan's and guma's yet cos mum is not done with the guma one yet.. sian.. okok.. going out now... be back later tonight to continue..

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haha this picture is so cute..

Friday Stuff
before i start on what i wad i did today..
i hav a fear and a thought stuck in my mind....
that is wat will become of wilfred when he go ns..
will he change? how much will he change? will our feelings and trust be as strong?
complications are that he will start having an income...
will i still be as important?
would his buddy be more important than me?
will i be neglected?
will he get tired of me or something?
terry was telling him that when he book out frm ns, they'll go pubbing...
i'm not all that free to go pubbing due to family restrictions...
will he be led astray?
i cant control his every move but i'll get more and more paranoid..
will he fall for another?
altho i merely said that he have to ask me when he goes pubbing...
he say 'not all the time lah'... perhaps so.. but why not?
so i changed and said 'at least tell me'..
will wad i say or hope for be unimportant to him anymore?
i fear.. and my fears are strong.
nevertheless.. i have to be strong.. and continue to trust him..

as for wad we did today was,
firstly, i met up with wilfred at about 4:30PM..
then we went on to walk around in heeren and all..
then soon cos i wanted to get for rieru her keychain as soon as possible to send over to japan,
we walked all the way to far east and i spent about $9.10
to get her a simple keychain with her name and horoscope.
then terry called n all and said that he'll be at Heeren..
we were supposed to meet him at about 6PM.
he is the alwaiz-late-king and worse off, is he lies abt it..
he'll tell u're there.. although he might still be on his way or at home..
this time worse off.. frm far east we walked all the way back to heeren
only to find out that he is still at his hse bus stop..
and he called wilfred when we already reached paragon..
so naturally wilfred was damn damn pissed about it.. and so pissed that he ticked terry off
in the middle of the road...
the first time i ever see him scold terry so fiercely before and it's pretty scary..
wilfred hates ppl to be late..
and was telling terry that the next time he is late again,
he'll not go out with him anymore.. o_O;;;;;
anyway, terry was pretty wary of wat he says infrnt of fred when he came.. *naturally*
and we walked around and stuff and waited for ken and another fren named Daniel to come....
we were at cine then but walked over to heeren to meet up with ken and all
then we walked to taka to eat macdonald....
then back to heeren...
then to 7-11 to get some drinks... *walk back n forth*
then back to heeren *sianz* went to carpark and sit ken's car to tanjong rhu..
terry's suggestion duno for wad...
ken's car was alrite..
the music was nice..
juz one prob. terry was damn noisy.. and extremely naggy..
the trip was alittle long but we got there anyway and the place was nice..
very quiet and beautiful...
sat around chatting and drinking then ken sent me n fred back to orchard..
they went devils' bar while me n fred went back home...
guess dat was abt it...
nothing big deal once again..
juz one thing...
i gotta bunk in with my folks in my dad's room tonite... =__=
cos the room windows not done yet... *sigh*

bored stiff at home...
woke up alittle later than usual today cos i set my alarm to 12:30PM instead..
but i woke up at about 12:10PM or so..
left chest is aching i duno y.. koushaku got worried and ask me go check up haha
but when i mentioned that it's aching and not paining, he joked that wilfred was too rough with me... x_X
chatted with twit and mizoe juz now... faith too..
and mizoe was 'supposed' to join us today... me n wilfred n terry going out later..
but she's not comin cos she say it's raining and her body is aching cos of her trip to escape theme park..
play until too bruised up already.. haha..
*sigh* my cousin bought me some food...
rice and loads of vege hahaha madness...
i like cow sia..

basically.. some updates on how's my hse's upgrading thingy going..
the toilet is half done.. they havent put up the tiles yet... and it has been left alone for quite awhile already... and i wonder why.. as for today, they started on the windows.. what is done now is basically juz the casment for the window but not the glass planes yet..

i'm so sick of all these man...
cant wait to get out of the house as soon as my mum gets home..

faith's hammie died this morn.
yet another traumastised victim of dead pets.
she said the same thing wilfred did.
dun wan pets anymore.
*sigh*

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Thursday Stuff

juz got back frm ike hse at abt 12AM... am watching music station right now. LIV will be performing tonight so i quickly called karen haha she seems pretty excited about it~!
twit is online! *whee* sano juz told me he bought the Lord of the Ring's ring liao .. haha and i went to cck Lot 1 the newly opened COMIC SHOP MUAHAHAHA and then i bought my LONG AWAITED manga!!!! 3x3Eyes but damn!!!!! everyone is almost dead in the fuckin book! shucks..hopes it gets better.... i waited damn long for this comic man.. half a year? yeah about there man.. and also.. i've been catching up with this comic since...either p6 or sec1..sometime around there and now what? i'm already 19.. gee.. sure takes a long time for this series to complete haha but somehow i hope it doesn't.. i'll feel lost without it.. we wanted to watch lord of the rings juz now.. but the seats r kinda filled... so i guess some other day perhaps.. juz saw LIV perform.. didn't like it. it's rather punkish but i'm fine with that. juz didn't like the song. no tune. but surprised to find out that he lived in the states for 8 years and performed in the US camp since 16 (til 19) and only learnt japanese when he returned to japan! no wonder i though his english accent was real.. haha.. hm.. ah damn..i'm bitten by a mozzie.. *scratch scratch*.. i find terry pretty lame nowadays.. or mebbe i've been thinking that he's pretty lame all along.. picking up fights that are meaningless.. and when confronted he backs away like a wimp. nvm.. *thank god ike dun often read unless i tell him to* haha i'm sorta running out of things to write but i wan to write. crazy me. haha i have now, no money, and no food, and i am freaking hungry.. i ate only once in the afternoon, which is beef noodles... no breakfast no nothing and end up chomping on bread juz now.. ike's hp bill is comin damn... hope i save up enough on time... it's abt $50 man.

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ah shit accidentally key 'sign out' instead...damn..

retype version *sianz*

going off~ to wilfred house later.... i woke up feeling rather tired with my eyes feelin alittle heavy.. cried too much last nite but i wun go into detail about it cos it's pointless to rake up the past.. woke up as usual by my hp's alarm at 12PM and did the same ol` stuff.. been chatting with ivan again.. seems to be chatting to him more recently... he's becoming abit more chatty or rather, more free to chat hahaa alwaiz so bz oso duno with wat lolz` he was asking me why put my stuff in the journal hahaha ain't it "kinda personal"? more than once ppl asked me this. Reason is basically that that URL i gave out is onli becos i allow u guys to noe my feelings that therefore i gav u guys the link. if i havent given it to u, that url is not for a public journal so no one else would know abt it.

Private Stuff..is when i hav things to hide.. but i hav none..n i dun care wad other thinks basically so i write my stuff out... for those who bother to read. cos sometimes wad u think in ur mind is as vicious as it can get but comes out of the mouth rephrased and i'm trying to avoid dat and tries to say things as raw as it is in my mind... hope this explains it all. lolz`

waiting for mum to get home so dat i can get out of the hse...
i like talkin to old frenz.. make me feel comfortable and very much myself..nothing to hide frm them cos they know so much abt u already...


Evangelion
Birthday Present from the "5 of us" a couple of years back.. love it totally

::[O]ver::[P]layed::[S]ongs::

Blue featuring Elton John - Sorry seems to be the hardest word.mp3
Chihiro Onitsuka - Tiger in my Love.mp3
Chihiro Onitsuka - Borderline.mp3
Chihiro Onitsuka - Castle imitation.mp3
Chihiro Onitsuka - Hyoryu no hane.mp3
Chihiro Onitsuka - Not Your God.mp3
Alicia Keyes - Girlfriend.mp3
Pearl Jam - I am Mine.mp3
Shakira - Te dejo Madrid.mp3
Yaida Hitomi - mikansei no Melody.mp3
Yuzu - koino kayoubi.mp3
Bump of Chicken - The Liveng Dead.mp3

juz got back after a round of shopping with mum...
hm.. alrite..not EXACTLY shopping.. it's more like walking around *sore legs* yeah?
i met her at about 6PM... then we went and eat at pasta mania... she ate mussels and clam while i ate creamy chicken..
she kinda complained that it was alittle fishy (cos they cooked it)
i duno wats the logic hahaa
basically i tot uncooked food is more fishy..
as for mine..
mebbe cos i was plain greedy n not hungry and wad i ordered was pretty thick
and the serving seems quite alot.. i couldn't finish it and felt like puking. hahaha period.
but it tasted good but i think i'll go for something simpler next time...

before all these, i woke up at about 12PM today to wait for yifeng to come and she did! *WhEe!* dat stupid freckie monster scared the heck out of me. she pounced on me while i was returning her sms. cos my hse door is open you see..for the construction thingy so she took the chance to scare me (cos i used to do dat to her alot) hahaha..
then we sorta chilled out at my house for awhile and she finally claimed her long awaited mr burns figurine which has been in my hse for nearly 3 years!!! anyway.. we watched alittle FF10 vcd and then at about 3PM or so wilfred came so we and find him at the bus stop nearby my market there.. then the three of us went on to parkway to chill out. wun be out for long today anyway cos yifeng has to live before 5:30PM to catch a dinner with frenz at orchard and wilfred hav to be home earlier cos he wanna watch the tiger cup *bleah*

Yifeng and I

Ah finally we are able to meet up! I HAD TO smile for the next picture because i kana scolding frm feng dat i alwaiz dun smile =P

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ok. i'm getting edgy.. sweaty palms.. (just kiddin)... heart beat rising...
Question of the Day:
Will Yifeng and I finally meet up?
*drum rolls*
let's wait and see.

i'm getting pretty nervous..
i think i better take in more deep breath.. or i'll die of heart attack..
her 'mr burns' is still at my hse waiting for her to collect after so many years..
=___=

went out. came home. fine day passed.
enjoyed myself much and thought that today was one of my good days spent.
end up feeling like shit right now.
the tiff left some bad taste in my mouth and the constant unsuccessful
meetings with yifeng left me in disappointed time after time
so much so that i gave up hope.
i should've known..from last time till now..
never to be hopeful...
dat was my greatest fault ever.
to be hopeful.
cos i always end up injured somehow.
and being hopeful is only opening a path for me to become vulnerable to disappointments.
stupid me.
i alwayz thought myself as selfish.
i dun think of others.
therefore i try and try to put myself in other's shoes.
i give unconditionally whenever i can.
but i end up being the silly one after all.. 'fools again'.. yeah.. datz me.
i give out 100% and i don't even know how much i'll get back.
watz the pt?

met melvina and gwen today.
said hi.
seems so stiff and reluctant.
left without a 'bye'
might as well dun greet me in the first place.
bleah~

juz got back not long ago from orchard with wilfred and sano and another girl (friend of sano frm NAFA)
she's abit shy...i think? i was kinda late because i was doing the previous entry.. with all the html and stuff..
pretty fun and i wore pretty slack today....juz a green oversize t-shirt and 3/4 cargo pants...
stupid yifeng still havent tell me whether she coming tomorrow.

juz bought a new handsfree...cheap cheap at five bucks..
transparent blue...pretty nice colour..

juz sorta had a tiff with wilfred and he is very fierce. not inparticularly with me juz that his voice was rather harsh.
sorta scares me... i seldom hear or see him fierce and when he does..i don't understand what goes through his mind and it's as if i don't know him for dat moment and it scares me but nevermind. all is well and we managed to talk things through...

went to HMV juz now....chihiro changed her looks totally man!! her hair and dressing...gee..
she came out a new album anyway..pretty nice...u guys can go check it out..

this entry is sorta made for the drama i really liked alot.. including the whole cast.. i like their characters and acting alot too.
The above japanese words reads as Hito ni Yasashiku which in another words, means 'be nice to people'.
They have their own website for 3peace

Name: katori shingo (SMAP)
Character: maeda zen
He is one of the surrogate father of akira. The cute lil` boy with sorta a tiger teeth. Owner of 3peace, this 26 year old works as a shop assistant at "Outdoor Shop". He is the guy akira's sensei likes and also, being an orphan he understands the need for a family and treats akira with undescribable kindness. Ambition? To be a professional Snowboarder!

Name: matusoka (SOPHIA)
Character: yamada tarou
Another surrogate father of akira living in together as a tenant of zen. 28 years old, he works as a shop assistant at a shop that sells imported foreign goods and charms almost all his lady customers. Driven out of his house and divorced, he moved in with zen. Ambition? Lawyer!!

Name: kato
Character: ootsubo ken
To be exact, akira has 3 surrogate father and this man, is the 3rd surrogate father of akira. Arrogant and fierce but deep dwn he is also another kind hearted person. At 30 years old age, he has a father who left his mother and raise him in a militarian style. Ambition? GET MARRIED WITH YUU!!

Name: suga kentai
Character: ikarashi akira
The little man of this whole drama who has the luck of 3 great surrogate fathers. His father is bankrupt and in jail while his mother landed in the hospital for attempting suicide (later in the show). he was left with a million dollar.. (spent by the 3peace guys) and a note which left zen and the gang no choice but to adopt him. taken with exceptionally gd care by the guys and especially zen, he lives happily in 3peace until the day his mother comes and fetch him back. Wish? Hope his parents will come and get him soon.

Name: hoshino mari
Character: sakaki nozomi (sensei)
The cute and blur 23 year old nozomi sensei teaches as a relief teacher in akira's primary school.often into words of exchange with zen but secretly, she has a thing for him! *winks* new and inexperience, she learnt how to be a teacher and being in an environment with akira and the 3peace gang, it only made the story more interesting. kind hearted and concerned, she pays gd attention to her students and especially akira.Worries? Akira and her affections towards zen.

Name: ryou
Character: yuuka yuu
29 years old pretty lady here is the ideal wife of ken. Seemingly icy cold, she is the owner of the bar restaurant, red-line, she is a good friend of the guys. 3peaces frequents her bar often although most of the time their bills are 'extended'. she knew the guys when they were 'boss' (leaders of some gang in their sch one taking after the another) thus she is also the one who understands them the best. She has a brother who works for the police and also knows of the notorious 3peaces guys since they were in school as 'bosses'.

Name: konishi
Character: mizusaki hanako
Yuu's assistant in the bar restaurant, red-line, this 23 year old is cheery and bubbly. She is not shy to let tarou know about her affections towards him.. instead, she openly 'goes' after him. Check out the moments when she gets jealous over tarou's targets. LoLz` very cute scene! but her efforts did her good as finally at the very end, tarou accepts her! Crush? tarou!!

This pictures are drawn. ^_^
Taken with thanks from Shingo Katori unofficial website

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WeEeEeEeE!!!!! WOKE UP AT 1PM MAN!! shiok ah!!!! i slept at sorta 4AM last night thinking that i might have to wake up at 9AM today but end up mum let me sleep and wooo slept all the way till 1PM!!!! 9 hours straight man! later meet wilfred! HEHE* so happie.. yesterday i found this reeeeeally cute website with drawings of Shingo and you guys can check it out HERE.

Also if you guys wanna check out about official websites for japanese singers you can also check it out HERE.

juz got back frm wilfred's hse not long ago.. @ abt 12:30PM and i reached home.. the toilet is in a mess.. tiles and all are gone... totally 'destroyed' hahaha and also i juz had to get out of the hse man...so damn noisy and all... the fixed in a temporary toilet... surprisingly the house is less messy than i imagined it to me.. thank goodness... at least i have a toilet to go when i need to..
like i mentioned:
#wednesday yifeng might come
#i might ask wilfred along in the afternoon
#tomorrow go buy hands free

so boring man... i wanna watch lord of the rings!!!! oh damn..nid to post out the x'mas cards soon..
and get rieru her present XP

strange cousin in the living room
hee..this is the picture i secretly took of that cousin of mine... by the way, yifeng MIGHT come over on wednesday..
gonna meet up with wilfred tomorrow..or rather later at orchard..
i'm gonna buy some hands free for my hp and also..
i might ask fred to meet us later on wednesday if she comes...


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doesnt seem v accurate haha

For All My Female Friends Out There!!!!

please save this picture if you're a female friend of mine. I made this specially for you 'sisters'...

Note: this entry is made later cos blogger cocked up�

have you noticed the time when this entry is made?
take a look now..you'll be suprised..
too lazy to look? let me tell you then.....
10:26AM. can you imagine that!?
when was the last time you guys ever see me online at sucha timing???
half the time i would've been in dreamland still..
but today is special...
nope..not the gd kind of special...
the traumatising kind.
Why? bEcAuSe...
OF THE GOD DAMNED CONSTRUCTIONS!!!!!!!!!!!! ArGHHHHHHHH
they've been drilling and drilling INSIDE my house since about 9AM.
how to sleep like that man! somemore what's worse is that there's so much noise and so many indian ppl walkin in and out of my house that i had to wake up *grumbles*.. chatted up with an #adm chatter, Urbanic, and will be adding his blog to mine later... pretty alrite to chat with.. was telling me about this fashion show our sch have during the open hse... might wan to go and see but have to see if wilfred wanna go..

juz now so pathethic man... i havta go to the market's toilet cos my hse toilet is filled with ppl drilling non-stop at it...
...ok i'm still chatting with urbanic although the 'cousin' of mine is here...
he's sorta here to help 'guard' the hse and me hahahaha cos there's too many indian ppl walking in n out of my hse...
the way my mum puts it across is alittle crude but true.. it's pretty dangerous.. things might get stolen and a girl like me might get 'raped' like she said although i dun like the way she says it....

argh i am really sleepy.... what should i do? go back and sleep or stay awake? i gotta go find wilfred later...
sleep at his house? but then when i wake up i won't be able to spend much time with him then.. how man..?? argh damnit...

i think i better go entertain my cousin....

hee�btw I �secretly� took a photo of him�frm my webcam XP
but muz wait awhile before i can post the pic cos... something wrong with my server for picture upload

12:24PM
still stuck at home and already, I am very tired and shagged.

Now, if Love is painful, and tortures us so,
why do we Love?
Why is it all we search for in life?
This pain, this agony?
Why is it all we long for?
This torture, this powerful death of self?
Why?
Because it's...
Love

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ARGHHHH I'VE BEEN CURSED BY THE SHIT WORD! >__<
i've been running in out of the toilet since 1PM... argh.. i wonder what i ate that caused me all these and i'm havin diarrhoea.. terrible man...
btw, wilfred had problem falling asleep last nite and was only able to fall asleep @ 2PM.. ( -__-")

Where Did Your Soul Originate?
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You come from the Ocean. You've always been drawn to the sea, the sound of the waves, the crystal blue water, near the sea is where you belong.

juz routinely went around lookin @ everyone else's blog... kinda bored.. and my shoutbox seems pretty dead... mebbe it's juz me... i like being constantly able to read new things lolz` so if i see the same message for two days i'll start getting bored..

please flood my shoutbox..

i was juz chatting happily with karen as i mentioned earlier on... then it switched to me talkin to Ivan (fren whom i play soccer with.. knew him since i sec1) and he was juz back frm counselling a friend and we were chatting about stuff. he was kinda sharing his perspection of god and christianity in a lego pt of view haha... rather interesting. he wasn't a christian frm the start. he only converted to being a christian sometime in the later years of his secondary school life. come to think of it... i know him for a very long time already.. at least i was able to keep some long time r/s with my friends..
i juz had to get my mind set on the x'mas cards...it's half written and left in the drawers for days already haha i forgot to continue writing them...
have to start saving money again.... to pay off wilfred's hp bill... we're both trying to chip in to pay off it...

frankly speaking...wat do u guys think of my blog now? whenever i look ard @ other ppl's blog i think their's is so nice and mine is so boring... is it?

i juz realised that my comp clock is wrong. it's on a PM mode.. -__-" and also still saturday... argh.. *set correctly*..

Andante
Anata wa yousha naku
Tadashii koto o iu
Atashi ga hoshii no wa sono mukou kawa nano
Yume kara samete ai ni kite
Akashi ga hoshi
Motome au nara nani yorimo tsuyoi hazu deshou
Anata ga sashi dashita yowane ga kokochiyoi
Atashi ni sukoshi nita mitai de ureshii
Namida wa uwabe no kazari yo
Sonna koto yori
Tsutau mizu no kiseki o
Yubi de nadete hoshii

Honki ni nante nara nakute ii
Futsuu de ii kara me o sorasanai de
Atashi o mune de kanjite ite

Kinoo no yasashisa ga kyou wa nazeka itai
Atashi ga sarasara nagarete iru kara
Sasayaki nagara aruki mashou
Kaze ni yurete
Tashikamenai to
Susumenai koto mo aru deshou?

Urusai machi to yasui kotoba mo
Itsumo yori suki
Aenai yoru wa biido de ii wa
Maru de tori no you
Anata no chizu to nakushita hane de
Sora mo tobe sou yo

Honki ni nante nara nakute ii
Fukiyou de ii kara
Ichinichi ikko shibireru hodo no
Kisu o choudai

Honki ni nante nara nakute ii
Futsuu de ii kara me o sorasanai de
Atashi o mune de kanjite ite

By Yaida Hitomi

::[B]ack::[F]rom::[P]ubbing::
woke up at about 2:30PM today...at wilfred's house... stayed over last night after we went pubbing... we got home i think at about... 3 or 4++ and slept at about 7AM this morning... we were watching tv.. some forensic investigation programme yeah and listening to his mum telling us that she had fits in her room when no one was around. dangerous.. wilfred was pretty sleepy last night due to the alcohol but i was pretty jumpy. was bouncing all over the place wanting to kick things hahahaha... we took the night rider home and i had a nap in the bus.. i couldn't get myself drunk enough last night... not even wobbly... not that i drank alot though but usually at the amount i drank, i should've been drunk already...or at least tipsy but i wasn't so i couldn't relax and dance at the pub.... kinda sux. anyway i didn't like the pub either.. too many bengs.. sorta prefer music underground that kind.. but at least the music was rather nice... juz wasn't....hm.. doesnt creating that thumping adrenaline rush when you hear it... mebbe it's bcos of the sound system.. anyway, when we got home i kinda forgot wad we did...erm..rest awhile in his room ya and *ahem*.... ya ok and then we went and bathe. i was wearing my yellow orientation camp t-shirt and self-tailored *grinz* cargo pants. kinda cute.. got the beach boy feel hahaha then like i said, we watched tv then head off to bed. i had prob falling asleep but did anyway.

::[T]oday::
after i woke up and brushed teeth and stuff, we went on down to 429 to eat.... i had chicken rice (stupid man put sauce for me) and fred had rice and the dishes thingy... we sat around and eat and chit chatted then actually, i wanted to go to Lot 1.. but too bad it started to drizzle so we hurried home... the stupid slipper i was wearing has no grip man!! nearly caused me to fall duno how many times... machiam ice-skating.. so scary hahaha i duno...but i love today lolz i love being with fred like this and stuff and juz totally the two of us alone spending our day together. but too bad i gotta head home to night hahaha we were checking our emails in the afternoon and then watched some tv... stuff like world funnist animal video *my favourite* and other shows... and guess wat!? HEHE finally there's ONE anime that caught wilfred's attention. "BOYS BE" he said it's rather real... as in the story line. hm then... while we were watching tv it's already about.. 6PM? or so? and then i fell aslp on his lap hahaha then the couch then he dragged me to his room to sleep hahahaha then i slept so much man....all the way until 9:30PM whahaha.... by the he was watching the Man U versus West Ham match... Man U won again.. 3-0 this time.. suddenly keep winning haha mad one.. anyway we stick around and relaxed in his room chatting about things when the match ended. until about 10:30PM or so we left and i bought two sausages from the pasar malam.. i forgot to take the platypus kor gave me... =P left it at fred's hse.. later go take back... mama say a cousin of mine will be coming to our hse everyday to help look out when the construction workers come and do the toilet n stuff.. *irritating upgrading crap* now i'm stuck at home and can't go out until 3pm when ma come back. sian sia..

know what? think i totally trust wilfred in such a sense dat karen say dat she thinks there's something strong between us and therefor it's natural for me to hav faith in him. ^___^

i'm having a very long and enojoyable chat with karen on msn now hahaha.... enjoy talking to her everytime. juz endless fun.

::[W]ilfred's::[B]irthday::[O]uting::
met fred they all at 4PM but *sheepish grin* i was the most late one... jia lat... when i reach spinelli everyone was already there... sitting round a table and looking at me wahaha i so 'big card' rite? we went on over the cine cos it's starting to drizzle.. NO THNX TO SANO!!! u stupid idiot... pray for rain.. SEE LAR!!
#%^&&&*&(@#$$^$% but aniway, we watched dat james bond movie...call wad...erm... oh yah...die another day or something like that.. pretty alrite lah the movie... but very long.. haha i was getting restless... hehehe but bcos the movie was at about 6:45 so we went to arcade and play game first... then after that we go n have dinner at the food court dwnstairs with fukai kor joining us. he got a pretty gf haha. her look very cute. i wonder wad he think of me wahaha.... anyway.. after the movies we were outside cine cos fred wanted to smoke and terry was waiting for us there. souji's fren ask me how old am i. i said 19 and she say i look cute and want to pinch my cheeks.
-_____-" imagine having a 14 year old telling me she wan to pinch my cheek cos i cute. *argh* we parted our ways at heeren and left with me, fred and sano. we went down to boat quay at first having no idea which pub to go to but finally decided to go boat house. didnt quite like it there cos very noisy and alot of ah beng. but there's this good looking guy who caught my attention *bwahahahha* and when i tease wilfred about me being distracted by another guy he's face sank into a pout immediately. hahahaha so cute. i say i jk then he smiled again and started dancing.
he's always able to put a smile on his face so quickly although he may be sad or angry. something i hav to learn to do too lolz`. he say he would not like to affect other's with his feelings. being happy makes other ppl around him happy too. he says that ziyan is alwayz cheery around ppl no matter wad. lolz we sorta met the girl terry likes at boat quay... she was alright with him at first but ignored him afterwards.... haha he is so dejected. i wonder wad he said dat made her turn angry or something. anyway, we went to boat house first then left to drink black cat to get ourselves more drunk in a building. then we went back in so on and so forth and at about 2++ we left for home. we ate lotsa prata at a prata shop though hahahaa... okie. end of story lalalaa i shall go cook maggi mee now... *stomach growling*..

hm.. waken up at 12PM..but went back to sleep. i told wilfred to gimme a wake up call at 1PM and he did..so after i woke up i juz lazed around the couch.. i was previously having a nightmare when sleeping. strange as it is, it's about yifeng not turning up for the date we set today. i'm supposed to meet her and i've been trying that for ages to no avail. there's always things cropping up on the day i wanna meet her even it's already settled. in the dream i dreamt of her saying that she's feeling sick and dizzy and cant meet up.. who knows? someone up there seems to love playing tricks on me. i woke up feeling relieved over the fact that it was a dream and the next thing you know? your nightmare comes true. juz with a lil` change of details but main point is, we aint meeting today. sux. her brother is having fever and she have to tend to him so what can i say but the simple fact that i'm suay. *sigh*

Last night we were chatting very happily and feng was talking alot of crap with wilfred leaving him stunned speechless cos the things she say is so funny but crappy. Then i showed mono the dolls i made...which i'm gonna post now.. and the previous ones in my entries *those i made* and he sound pretty shocked. cos haha i guess he didn't know i actually made those myself.

also, i'm gonna spend a day at wilfred's house today... lucky me, his dad is going to work. so at least i wun hav a prob with his dad. and also, the doll took me over 2 hours to make... by far my most details work. i sent it to the base owner and she replied me that she aint actually the base owner haha it's another site! neverthless i gave her the doll cos i find her dolls v nice and i wanna giv her something... at least her site is wat showed me the base. she said i'm pretty gd for a beginner haha. definitely hope so and hope that i can improve more on it.

BRATS


Base from PaperDolls

Glad to say that this dollie is already adopted by a friend of mine, Karen!!! HEE! first customer, *kichink!*